I'm your favorite bitch

Only if I knew where I lost it.

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:12:17 -0700

Only if I knew where I lost it.

Gonna sum up my semester: -Discovered reddit and imgur. Also...

Wed, 27 Mar 2013 23:44:00 -0700

Gonna sum up my semester:

-Discovered reddit and imgur. Also discovered I am not that funny

-Discovered I am horrible at small talk and instead of working on it, I choose to ignore people to avoid small talk all together

-Discovered instagram. Abandoned tumblr. Too many funny people on the internet

-Discovered buzzfeed. Shit is updated constantly

-Discovered the 30 day squat challenge, on day 10. Legs hate me. I will love my butt at the end.

-Class for my program literal mind fuck every class. Learning about pretty much how every thought is essentially formed and how it’s formed.

-I should ___ more, including= read, play ukulele, play piano, do yoga, go run outside, doodle, write, network…

-Been complaining to close friends. Pretty sure they are sick of me. If I was a friend of me, I would think I was one of those girls that complain to fish compliments and support.

ugh

Haven’t posted in a while and thought about deleting this...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 15:27:22 -0800

Haven’t posted in a while and thought about deleting this because of instagram but I need somewhere to rant without people knowing that it’s me.

Break was great. I am welcoming 2013 with goals to improve myself.

Also, snowboarding was great.

Last exam tomorrow. Another semester over. I think I can...

Sat, 15 Dec 2012 01:24:00 -0800

Last exam tomorrow.

Another semester over.

I think I can honestly say I had the best semester of my university life so far. I know this is pretty cliche but I really go to do just me. Really find myself and figure out who I am.

I’m quick to judge and I don’t really make friends easily

I’m lazy and I fall off the wagon a lot and it takes me forever to get back on it.

If I don’t act the way I hold myself to, I will be in a cloud of self-doubt and disappointment.

School wise, I found out that I really, really enjoy cognitive psychology and that I am never going to take an ochem course ever again. Also, that I have to stick to a schedule or I will fall off the wagon and I’m not fast enough to jump back on it.

Family wise, it was a reminder of how much I rely on them for support and encouragement. And how at the end of the day, your family is always there for you no matter what. Having my sister here, though she has caused me considerable trouble, really was a positive.

Friend wise, it’s clear that I have a really hard time opening myself to making new friends since I’m quick to judge and it’s hard to change my opinion. But that once I do make a good friends, it takes me a while to decide to not be friends, no matter how terrible you are to me. Also I suck at confrontation. Above all, this semester really made me realize that I have terrific friends. Seriously the friends that I have now are friends that I can see being my bridesmaids at my wedding.

Relationship wise, I realize I still have a lot of learning to do here. This is honestly where I wanna kick myself in the head and ask myself what I was thinking. So many embarrassing, embarrassing moments. And I know the problem is that I feel terrible saying no and alcohol. All of the moments I consider mistakes have happened under the influence of alcohol. So next semester I’m really going to keep my drinking to a minimum and hold myself to the quality I know I am and can be, drunk or not.

It’s easier to focus on the negative than the positive and I keep doing that thinking about what’s happened this semester. But hey, I didn’t break up with the same guy three times, pass out at a frat, go to the emergency room for alcohol poisoning or write a final knowing full well there was no way I’d pass. I did alright. =]

Going fucking crazy. Exam week always jeopardizes my mental and...

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 06:09:08 -0800

Going fucking crazy.

Exam week always jeopardizes my mental and physical well being.

I haven’t slept for more than three hours in the past week and I’ve been at the library more in the last week than my 2 and a half years of university last. What’s worse, my roommates seem to have a knack for making the most noise when I need sleep the most.

Went to bed at 4ish last night, woke up at 6 cos my roommate was blasting music through the window and tonight when I was trying to sleep for my exam that’s in 12 hours omg, one of my roommates had all of her friends over and was making impossible amounts of noise so I did not sleep.

I can’t wait to go home, be around family and friends, take a bath, just relax ugh.

After tomorrow I should be feeling way more relaxed cos I don’t have an exam till Saturday. 30 more hours. I got this.

The only way to relieve stress during exam week for me is eating...

Mon, 03 Dec 2012 15:25:04 -0800

The only way to relieve stress during exam week for me is eating delicious food.

Everything else seems like a waste of time.

It’s like pre-hibernating time for me.

omg photoshop

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 02:34:00 -0800

omg photoshop

Craving romance. I told a guy I can see myself liking him and I...

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 02:18:00 -0800

Craving romance.

I told a guy I can see myself liking him and I don’t remember what he said because I was drunk out of my mind.

From a poem from the Tang Dynasty. My mindset for this...

Wed, 28 Nov 2012 02:24:28 -0800

From a poem from the Tang Dynasty.

My mindset for this semester’s exams.

I’ve finally gone through the crazy single girl phase. In...

Sun, 25 Nov 2012 19:17:00 -0800

I’ve finally gone through the crazy single girl phase.

In the last two months, I’ve gone through numbers, dates, fbs, parties and hook-ups.

I think the whole not being able to do YOLO and everything I was going through was just me realizing this.

Chicken teriyaki box I get chicken teriyaki, salad, 6 pcs...

Sun, 25 Nov 2012 15:49:04 -0800

Chicken teriyaki box

I get chicken teriyaki, salad, 6 pcs california rolls and tempura for 9.58

It’s so much food I eat it over two meals.

I might do a series called “Food under 10”

Don’t over-think.

Mon, 19 Nov 2012 18:06:21 -0800

Don’t over-think.

Only reason I work on my core right now

Mon, 19 Nov 2012 01:08:00 -0800

Only reason I work on my core right now

K so I have been living by YOLO these past months and things...

Mon, 19 Nov 2012 00:36:00 -0800

K so I have been living by YOLO these past months and things have not worked out well.

It makes me super fucking self conscious. Because I have shit to be embarrassed and self-conscious about.

I feel like YOLO is for teenagers that don’t understand or care about the consequence of their actions or someone who really, really wants to live a wild life because, hey you only live once so why not.

It’s not for me. I judge myself too much. I hate telling people stories and knowing that they are not going to approve. And I can’t fucking keep my mouth shut. So it’s a vicious cycle of, WOOOO YOLO-WTF DID I DO!-WTF AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE-WHY AM I MAKING THESE CHOICES-talk to friends-WHO THE FUCK AM I-AH FUCK IT YOLO.

Ah just fuck YOLO. Seriously. Can’t. Just can’t operate on it.

Applies to me, no more loose antics &stop being nice to...

Sun, 18 Nov 2012 23:55:00 -0800

Applies to me, no more loose antics

&stop being nice to people that don’t deserve it.

FONDUE FONDUE Chocolate and Cheese. No fucking shit that I...

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 15:26:25 -0800

FONDUE FONDUE

Chocolate and Cheese.

No fucking shit that I gained 5 pounds over the long weekend.

Found THE all you can eat sushi place. They have unagi, soft...

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 15:25:38 -0800

Found THE all you can eat sushi place.

They have unagi, soft shell crab roll and fresh oysters.

Meat and Bread. So freaking good.

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 15:24:21 -0800

Meat and Bread.

So freaking good.

Grocery sushi before my chem midterm to satisfy sushi...

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 15:23:34 -0800

Grocery sushi before my chem midterm to satisfy sushi cravings.

I had sushi 3 times, 2 all you can eat this weekend.

First holiday drink from Starbucks this winter. Always makes my...

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 15:22:35 -0800

First holiday drink from Starbucks this winter.

Always makes my day better.